It's currently day eighty two of lockdown in the UK and I'm pretty sick of it now. I spend my days doing work, college work, playing on my playstation and eating. Sometimes I'll go for a walk but where I live there aren't really any places to go.
I feel like I should tell you some more on my boyfriend, Joshua. We have been dating for almost two years, we had been in the same year since we both began secondary school, however our school had two groups which the year was split into. A band and M band. I was in A band and he was in M band, this meant we had no classes together for four years. In fact, we didn't even know each other existed. Anyway, we were introduced by an old mutual friend of ours (that could be a story for another day but I'm not sure yet). We began talking over snapchat, we got on well, and then we didn't talk for a while, it was the summer holidays and we were either on holiday or out etc. In September we began talking again. We played on the Playstation together and got on really well. Fast forward a few weeks and we began dating and I guess that's it. We've had our ups and downs but were really good together if I do say so myself. We do each others heads in but thats all part of the fun.
Last year I had a few issues which have effected my mental health quite severely and I am still struggling with them now, in fact I wrote made this blog because writing helps take my mind off issues. At the beginning of last year I had a fall out with all of my friends, I won't go into detail but it was bad and effected my mental health in a big way. Just as I was getting over this and putting myself back together again, my dog suddenly passed away. This effected me in a huge way too. I had never experienced losing someone. I'd had my dog, Holly since I was seven, she was my best friend and I still think of her everyday. I lost her on the 11th August 2019. Over the nest few weeks of this happening, other problems occurred too. Its been over a year since it all began and I am still struggling to cope with the loss of my friends, my dog, and the other issues which occurred. I've always had bad anxiety, since this happening its gotten much worse. As well as this I now also struggle to feel happy, and when I do its for five minutes at the most. Mental heath is a serious issue. Some days are good, others not so much. I needed to mention this as I am trying to overcome this, slowly I am getting better and building myself back up. It you want me to do a post on this please tell me and I can go into more detail.
I guess thats it really. I'll go more in-depth with different subjects such as college, anxiety, love, family etc in their own posts. If you need to talk or have any questions, please comment below or you can email me using the tab to the left.
See you next time,
MJ
